Day 2- Rewind.

My journal on Feb 20th: "Grant's B23 evaluators left convinced he has Autism. I'm blessed to feel okay, even optimistic. I love the Lord." Feb 21st: "so my emotions are just beginning to swing a little today, but overall they're still being held pretty steady. So what does God think of all this? That He let us be ignorantly blissful for as long as He could? That we needed to be Humbled? That it was time to join a network of people bonded together by a common cause? Needed to get me som relief with Childcare, finally? Needed to help me realize that I've been carrying 'the big glass of water' too long? That it needs to be handed off? So many questions. Grant, is he worse now or do I just hear every moan and whine differently? Does he look at me less now or do I just see that his gaze wandered all the time before? And the biggest question of all: How could I have been so surprised? I wasn't expecting this at all."